An open letter to President Trump from The History of Time

All respect for the office of the presidency aside, I assumed that the obvious and unadulterated decline of freedom and constitutional sovereignty, not to mention the efforts to curb the power of judicial review, spoke for itself. The greatest power is not money power, but political power. What I fear most is power with impunity. I fear abuse of power, and the power to abuse.

I write for those women who do not speak, for those who do not have a voice because they were so terrified, because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. We’ve been taught that silence would save us, but it won’t. People are losing the capacity to listen to words or follow ideas. If there hadn’t been women we’d still be squatting in a cave eating raw meat, because we made civilization in order to impress our girlfriends. I do not wish women to have power over men; but over themselves. I say this everywhere I go: I admire and respect Hillary. She has been a lawyer, a law professor, First Lady of Arkansas, First Lady of the United States, a U.S. Senator, Secretary of State. Anyone who knows anything of history knows that great social changes are impossible without feminine upheaval. Social progress can be measured exactly by the social position of the fair sex, the ugly ones included. I guess at the end of the day, all women like to be appreciated and treated with respect and kindness.

The demand to be loved is the greatest of all arrogant presumptions. Everyone should be respected as an individual, but no one idolized. Popularity should be no scale for the election of politicians. If it would depend on popularity, Donald Duck and The Muppets would take seats in senate. I firmly believe that respect is a lot more important, and a lot greater, than popularity. Once you figure out what respect tastes like, it tastes better than attention. But you have to get there. Power without a nation’s confidence is nothing.

We have the best government that money can buy. Republicans and Democrats have used accounting gimmicks and competing government analyses to deceive the public into believing that 2 + 2 = 6. If our leaders cannot agree on the numbers, if ‘facts’ are fictional, how can they possibly have a substantive debate on solutions? Those who cannot understand how to put their thoughts on ice should not enter into the heat of debate. In common with all Protestant or Jewish cultures, America was developed on the idea that your word is your bond. Otherwise, the frontier could never have been opened, ’cause it was lawless. A man’s word had to mean something.

Someone once told me that if you respect a person, listen to their opinion. And if you do not respect someone, then do not listen to their opinion. And that works both ways. We all require and want respect, man or woman, black or white. It’s our basic human right. One of the most sincere forms of respect is actually listening to what another has to say. Freedom of expression – in particular, freedom of the press – guarantees popular participation in the decisions and actions of government, and popular participation is the essence of our democracy. It is a paradox that every dictator has climbed to power on the ladder of free speech. Immediately on attaining power each dictator has suppressed all free speech except his own. It is not power that corrupts but fear. Fear of losing power corrupts those who wield it and fear of the scourge of power corrupts those who are subject to it. Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself. Arrogance, ignorance, and incompetence. Not a pretty cocktail of personality traits in the best of situations. No sirree. Not a pretty cocktail in an office-mate and not a pretty cocktail in a head of state. In fact, in a leader, it’s a lethal cocktail. It is certain, in any case, that ignorance, allied with power, is the most ferocious enemy justice can have.

In Republics, the great danger is, that the majority may not sufficiently respect the rights of the minority. The relationship between the government of the United States and social and indigenous movements has always been difficult. Not just in Bolivia but worldwide. We need to have bilateral relations characterized by mutual respect. Society does not consist of individuals but expresses the sum of interrelations, the relations within which these individuals stand. The new republic should be based on diversity, respect and equal rights for all. There are horrible people who, instead of solving a problem, tangle it up and make it harder to solve for anyone who wants to deal with it. Whoever does not know how to hit the nail on the head should be asked not to hit it at all. One thing that I feel very, very strongly is that we talk about Islamic countries, Islamic people, Islamic leaders, as either moderates or extremists. It’s almost like there are only two categories of Muslims. And actually, that doesn’t show respect. It shows lack of understanding of the diversity of Muslim thought. A fascist is one whose lust for money or power is combined with such an intensity of intolerance toward those of other races, parties, classes, religions, cultures, regions or nations as to make him ruthless in his use of deceit or violence to attain his ends. Race hate isn’t human nature; race hate is the abandonment of human nature. Intolerance is itself a form of violence and an obstacle to the growth of a true democratic spirit. I believe mutual respect for one another and cooperation should be the basis for relationships with foreign nations. Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. Be modest, be respectful of others, try to understand.

America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves. True security is based on people’s welfare – on a thriving economy, on strong public health and education programs, and on fundamental respect for our common humanity. Development, peace, disarmament, reconciliation and justice are not separate from security; they help to underpin it. The history of all previous societies has been the history of class struggles. If you have ten thousand regulations you destroy all respect for the law. Where justice is denied, where poverty is enforced, where ignorance prevails, and where any one class is made to feel that society is an organized conspiracy to oppress, rob and degrade them, neither persons nor property will be safe. If once you forfeit the confidence of your fellow-citizens, you can never regain their respect and esteem. Our government… teaches the whole people by its example. If the government becomes the lawbreaker, it breeds contempt for law; it invites every man to become a law unto himself; it invites anarchy. A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government. Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek. Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can’t ride you unless your back is bent.

We’re not a fragile people. We’re not a frightful people. Our power doesn’t come from some self-declared savior promising that he alone can restore order as long as we do things his way. We don’t look to be ruled. Government’s first duty is to protect the people, not run their lives. In the absence of justice, what is sovereignty but organized robbery? This world of ours… must avoid becoming a community of dreadful fear and hate, and be, instead, a proud confederation of mutual trust and respect. We should all consider each other as human beings, and we should respect each other.

What we have to do… is to find a way to celebrate our diversity and debate our differences without fracturing our communities. The test of our social commitment and humanity is how we treat the most powerless of our fellow citizens, the respect we accord to our fellow human beings. That is what reveals our true culture. The care of human life and happiness, and not their destruction, is the first and only object of good government. The way forward is always found through greater respect for the equal rights of all. There is no contradiction between effective law enforcement and respect for civil and human rights. Dr. King did not stir us to move for our civil rights to have them taken away in these kinds of fashions. Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other. Revolutions are the locomotives of history. We must respect the past, and mistrust the present, if we wish to provide for the safety of the future. If there is no struggle, there is no progress. When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace.

 

Sincerely,

History of Time

 

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This letter is constructed by various quotes from these people:
Ruth Bader Ginsburg, Walter Annenberg, Isabel Allende, Audre Lorde, Orson Welles, Mary Shelley, Michelle Obama, Karl Marx, Sofia Vergara, Friedrich Nietzsche, Albert Einstein, Julius Erving, Pink, Catherine the Great, Mark Twain, J. C. Watts, Maisie Williams, Aretha Franklin, Bryant H. McGill, Corazon Aquino, Herbert Hoover, Aung San Suu Kyi, Graydon Carter, James A. Baldwin, James Madison, Evo Morales, David Miliband, Henry A. Wallace, Mahatma Gandhi, Narendra Modi, Lakhdar Brahimi, Abraham Lincoln, Ban Ki-moon, Winston Churchill, Frederick Douglas, Louis D. Brandeis, Edward Abbey, Barack Obama, Martin Luther King, Jr., Ronald Reagan, Saint Augustine, Dwight D. Eisenhower, Malala Yousafzai, Hillary Clinton, Azim Premji, Thomas Jefferson, Martin O’Malley, Dorothy Height, Carl Jung, Joseph Joubert, Jimi Hendrix

Each new quote have a bold word in its sentence or sentences. These are all actual quotes, and I have not modified anything, besides constructing the layout of the text and putting the sentences together.

The Art of the Void in Spaces

At a school-trip in Berlin last year I thought a lot about the imagination of space, and space as something abstract and dysfunctional. For me it was our trip to the New Jewish museum that really made me see how lack of space can create something within oneself. I’m referring to the spaces they called Voids.

The Void is something that fascinated me in many levels. It could be like a dream of time, or space in time, and the Void would be the ultimate re-creational space. I would consider the Void to be a Powerfield[1], where there’s only your body in the space. Your own experience and interpretation of the space will be a unique perception, and differ from everyone else.

In the New Jewish Museum they had a lot of Voids, and some that you could not be a part of and walk in to. I found it interesting and peculiar to observe a void, and a nothingness from afar. For me it got important to investigate the Void even further, and try to understand what it was really all about. After we had been down to the Voided Void, a chamber in the basement, I would start seeing “voids” everywhere. Emptiness surrounding us everywhere, spaces, structures and models with nothingness.

For my first space I chose the Void chamber at the New Jewish Museum. It had a heavy door, and it was basically pitch black except from a tiny little light shimmer in the corner ceiling. It was so dark and empty. You’d feel so small, so tiny. The space created a gap, a form of emptiness between the people in the space. Everybody was alone, and you knew that everybody had different kind of feelings towards this space. Voices and static sounds outside the space made me think about the Void, when you’re stuck between death and afterlife. We were in Nowhereland. The Void. The Nothing. All empty. Just ourselves and our minds.

My second space would be the garden tunnel they had outside the New Jewish Museum. You could walk true the tunnel of Void to get to another kind of emptiness. These relations between spaces I found interesting. Even though the tunnel was not considered a “void” officially, I could see the Void within it. The tunnel could symbolize a free fall, or a walk into the light. The descendant to eternal death.

In the Void time does not exist. The Void is described by many, religions, philosophers, designers, artists and painters. You could find different kinds of references to the Void in several forms of contemporary art. Everybody has different ways of describing the Void. It could be the wasteland between realities, another universe, a nothing or a space we can’t even start to describe. A no space if we’d like. Even though there is a lot of different opinions about what the Void really is, it could still be seen as something universal, as many interpret the Void as a nothing place. In the Void the normal rules of time and space do not apply. The Void could be thought of something that exist outside of all of that, it is a “nowhere” outside of what we find to be real.

The third space I chose was the dome at The Deutscher Bundestag. I felt a different kind of Void towards this place. It made me think about lost souls in the void, struggling with their thoughts, not wanting to live, and not wanting to die. In the game League of Legends, the Void is described as a place between dimensions, and between worlds. The unknown, or the outside. A timeless place. People were floating in the void, unaware of time and space.

Frank Lloyd Wright designed the Gugenheim building that opened in 1959, he grandly portrayed the notion of the Void, leaving the center of the building tantalizingly empty. In 2010 the Gugenheim celebrated this with a special exhibition featuring the Void from different artists[2]. Like those examples the Void has been an inspiration for many different artist, exhibitions and movies.

My feelings about the Voids I’ve felt sums up with this: “While breathing in and out you feel the movement of emptiness inside you and the emptiness is you. At this moment you see the only things which are absent in the room are the impossible ways of existence” (2013)[3].

The Void is the absence of absolutely everything.

[1] Goldburg, RoseLee, “Space as Praxis”, Reprint from 1975.

[2]  http://www.gugenheim.org/void

[3] «The Void» (Audiovisual installation) St. Petersburg, Russia. Loft Project ETAGI Gallery, May 2013. Produced by TUNDRA

The Virtual World merging Reality

We live in the digital millennium where our lives are becoming increasingly more virtual. We are connected all day long and as many as 49% of the Norwegian population are surfing the web via mobile units like tablets or smartphones. This makes us easily available, and easy targets for interruption. New technologies like Google glasses will have an even greater impact on the integration between cyberspace and reality. Social media has contributed so that marketing now reach consumers faster. Word of mouth is spreading among consumers with the speed of light. Activity we conduct on the web is being monitored all the time. Cookies allow the advertisement to be more individualized targeted to each one of us. SOPA, NSA, PRISM og DLD are just some organisations that some fear are threatening our privacy and freedom of speech.

The virtual world also creates difficulties for our physical world. Amazon forces bookstores to fire their employees, or shut down their stores completely, while printed ad revenue keep falling.

With new technology and connectivity at all times are we moving towards a society where everyone can see everything. A society where we can easily monitor each other, and easier be monitored by others. A society where we find censorship necessary and where free speech is getting increasingly restricted. Censorship are also largely determined by the law and different kind of ethic rules in society and different organizations. Even in the marketing world there are rules on what you can and can not communicate to the public. In Norway you can not play on sex in commercials, you can not target commercials to kids, and you cannot make ads for alcohol or online betting. Laws like that forces marketers to find rules around, and play on sex in creative ways. Some of the Norwegian TV-channels broadcast from other countries like Great Britain to avoid these rules and still earn money on commercials related to online betting or targeted at kids. Toys commercials are illegal. But still it’s ok to use kids in commercials for shampoo and soap?

Online the marketing laws have not been occurring in the same sense, there is still not any clear rules for hidden advertising, ethics and the use of social media. But the government is trying hard to get control over all the communication that happens online as well. What you cannot say online is getting even more strict. After the Internet’s revolution we have gained a whole new world to deal with, and legislation has a new arena to penetrate; social media. The virtual world is about to merge completely with our reality and our everyday lives. The freedom for expression and a choice to be anonymous is getting more and more difficult.

“Everyone wants everyone to know something about everyone” (Amundsen, 2012). Not only do we monitor each other via social media, we also need to be careful for what we express and communicate to the outside world. “Social Media is the media we use to be social. That’s it”(Safko, 2010). Humans are social animals by nature. We need social stimulation and affiliation. Via social media one can expand one’s social network in the virtual world. We need social stimuli in order to share our thoughts, experiences, and get confirmation of our existence. On the web, we can easily express ourself, share what we have to share and show the world that we are a part of society. Uncritical we post comments and updates on social media and write “pink-blogs” about today’s outfit. On the web one can pretend to be just the person one want to be. You can troll, discuss and promote yourself exactly as you wish. Yet the continual restrictions for what we are allowed to express online forces our online presence to become more authentic. When you need to be careful with what you express, it might oblige people to act more cautious in what the communicate to each other. Especially online. People get boring and post updates of their dinner and their cat taking a shit and what not. True thoughts hardly gets out in the open. People get afraid.

We have not always seen the world as we currently see it. Looking at art as a reflection of our reality, we can see that the expressions, techniques and portraits constantly have been changing over time. Realistic paintings is something which have come along after a long time of experimentation and fine tuning over a long, long time. Approximately 500 years B.C. painters made ​​the greatest discovery until then; Abbreviation. The artists tried for the first time in history to paint a foot front view. This was then something that had never been tried before (EH Gombrich: 81). When this revolution had started it could not be stopped. Different ideas linked to the ideas of others, they borrowed ideas from one another and built new theories and techniques based on other peoples ideas. It would take a long time for us to illustrate the reality in an authentic way, and it was not until the photograph that we could truly make a genuine reflection of reality. When George Eastman introduced the Kodak camera in 1888 he made the photograph generally available to most people. Around the same time art changed from being something aesthetically beautiful and perfected to increasingly express something abstract and controversial. Now that we had a camera why would we paint reality? We could now use painting to express art in a different way, to express feelings or to portrait reality in a alternate way. With the photo art no longer needed to be an illustration of reality, but rather a freedom from it. “Passport portraits is viewed as an imprint of reality” (Danbolt, Meyer, 1988:30). It’s intended to illustrate who we are and whether we are those we claim to be. Even though we can’s really claim that the photograph is a mirror of our reality. A photograph is a moment caught in time and we have no information about the course of events around the image past and future. “The photography device gives us a picture of a person in a particular time in a particular light and in a given pictorial view” (Danbolt, Meyer, 1988:30). People change, places change, an image is not updated accordingly and thus becomes no more than a memory. Like the memories we post online will not always be removed or altered, and could never be forgotten or hidden.

Throughout history we have seen freedom of speech been curtailed in various contexts. Hans Jaeger’s novel “From Oslo Bohemians” were seized and burned by authorities the same day that it came out in 1885. Jaeger was by Supreme Court sentenced 60 days in prison for “blasphemy and defamation of bashfulness and sexual moral”. We might understand that something like that could happen some 150 years ago, but no later than two years ago NATO troops at Bagram base in Afghanistan burnt an unknown number of Korans. Which further led to large demonstrations where over 2,000 Afghans went to protest at Bagram Air Base and resulted in over 40 people killed as a result. The difference in the various cases is that the troops expressed a form of expression, while Jaeger was diprived his. How one should express freedom of speech become a different discussion. With free speech comes a responsibility, we have ethical guidelines to deal with, we have laws and clauses, all of which help to control what we say and how we should say it.

The newspaper Nordlys wrote last fall about a man in his 20’s who has been arrested with suspicion of violation of the Norwegian Penal Code section 135a, which deals with racism. The man called himself BlackRanger on the social media Twitter. These kinds of events illustrates how freedom of speech has its limitations and enter into crime offenses. Perhaps some of our expressions are to be something we keep to ourselves and write down in your diary instead of uttering us on social media. Many limitations in freedom of expression may in time cause us to censor ourselves more frequently, and it may in a way create a fear of opinion. Lawyer Jonas Haugsvold suggested in an article in Minerva that we must be the classic speech faithful and encourage citizens to give their opinion rather than to warn them not to do it – even though it is never so bad, stupidly or offensive what might ultimately be expressed from them. There are several proponents of free speech. Organizations like the Freedom of Expression and Norwegian P.E.N. are fighting for freedom of speech when the light turns out to be absent, especially in media and journalism. Hacker Society Anonymous has long been a proponent of a free network and has frequently demonstrated digitally. Recently, Yahoo said  that they want to encrypt all information that moves between the organisations data centers.

Various books and movies have over the years been considered to be indecent, pornographic, racist and blasphemous, and authorities have therefore found it necessary to apply censorship to many of them. The “Mykle-case” from 1957 is Norway’s biggest literary process in Norwegian history, Agnar Mykle was accused of portraying pornographic in the book “The Song of the Red Ruby”. Mykle was eventually acquitted. 10 years later, Jens Bjørneboe got convicted for pornographic depictions in the book “Without a Stitch”. Bjørneboe himself said that the book was intended as a parody to speed up the debate about pornography in this country. Today, books like “Fifty Shades of Grey” is one of the most sold books. Time is changing, and what we censored before is not the same as today. The limits of free speech are constantly metamorphic. Yet we continue to set boundaries of what we think is good for the public, rather than being more liberal. As recently as 2011 Media Authority forbade three movies for sale and show in Norway, including “A Serbian Film”. The Norwegian tabloid newspaper VG said the film was “the world’s worst film” and wrote that the film flirts with necrophilia and depicting child pornography.

Through social media such as online forums you can anonymously discuss and ask a whole multitude of things you might not dare to ask about otherwise. The Norwegian underground forum Freak Forum have discussions on controversial topics such as pyro, hacking and drugs. DinSide referred in 2009 to the forum as a place “where the bad guys are discussing”. Paul Rune Sørensen Tuv, owner of Norwegian Freak Forum, defends the site to DinSide that they do not accept solicitations to crime, but legal descriptions of how things can be done they publish, and explain that they are ideologically for free expression.

Internet forums are not only a place for free speech about taboo subjects, but are also easy prey for spam and viral marketing. A number of online forums in 2006 became victims of disguised advertising from Coca Cola for the launch of their new product Coca Cola Zero. The concept is called Undercover Viral marketing, and is a term for marketing that spreads via social media. “Coca Cola tries with this type of marketing to bypass the laws, norms and regulations applicable in other media”, wrote forum user NoRemorse. Viral Marketing is something marketers increasingly make use of. They make videos that are spreading like a virus through social media such as Youtube and Facebook. Studies show that 53 percent of the users do not realize that the viral videos have a commercial message. Viral Marketing can in many cases be a violation of Norwegian Marketing Control Act § 3, but are in many cases neglected without further consequences.

“In times of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act”, said George Orwell. The Internet is a social platform, a marketplace, a dream world and a virtual world of opportunities and disappointments. An increasing censorship and limitations of expression creates a glossy picture of our reality and ourselves. Privacy must give way for marketers and for monitoring humankind. For the benefits of us all. In a world where we know everything about everyone, there are no secrets. In the shadow waits the anonymous to strike to save our rights. We must never forget that it is we who decide the outcome and the future ahead. “The greatest danger is ourselves, little brothers who together form the 21th century’s Big Brother” (Bénilde, Marie, LeMonde Diplomatique).

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The changes of yourself

We’re always looking to find ourself. Thriving to figuring out who we are.
Who are you? Who am I? I don’t believe we’ll ever find that out.

People are always changing in the most mysterious ways.
Even though your favorite color was green when you were younger it doesn’t mean that’s the color you still like the best. It don’t have to be, even though you want it to be. Some people seem to be stuck in these questions, like “what’s your favorite Movie? Music? Animal? Day of the week? Number?” etc. How the hell are anybody suppose to know these things? How do you define a favorite, and how do one set the criteria?
It’s like it’s expected by us to know what we like the most. Numbero ueno. Ichi ban. One.
What’s your favorite Food? Drink? Computer? Browser? Blogger? Web site? Place to shit?

I know what I like sometimes, and what I like better other times.
Suddenly I don’t  really like any of the alternatives anymore. I might just find something new, different and really weird to like. I can’t pick a favorite band, or musician, movie or book. It’s constantly changing, as long as I’m changing.

Like other people I’ve made a lot of lists with different favz, and I used to be a totally list “whore”.  Sometimes I use it as a reminder for «who i might be». If I actually sometime just might be figuring that out. But the questions who confuse me the most is that am I actually going to be defined by what I choose to like, what I choose to adore, love and admire? Am I going to be looked upon differently when I suddenly do not care for somethings anymore? Like my political, or ethical views. Politics change all the time, and political parties change their election program every year it’s a new election. Suddenly some parties starts to care more about animal rights, or the environment, or the educational or the health systems. The shallow stuff that’s floating on the surface, for everyone to watch. The real issues never even get debated. We don’t even care, and a lot of people vote for the same parties every year. But for some people the change and the new way of thinking is false, and a way to get populistic votes.

People seem to be assuming that when others find themselves backing away from what they used to like, it’s like stating that one is denying oneself. Like we are forgetting who we are, deep down.
I think differently. Who we are, deep down, can never be changed. It’s ok to try something new. It’s ok admitting you are not a Messiah. It’s ok admitting you’re human. People learn and  experience new things. People want to learn and get new experiences. And yes, that might be the main reason people are changing.

You always hear people commenting others, in different ways they’ve “changed”.  «She used to be so different, she’s not the same person that she used to be, she’s changed so much».
What the hell?
Off course she has changed, it would be more shocking if she didn’t.
You’ve changed, right?
You’re changing all the time, we all are.
So what, people don’t do the same crazy shit anymore, or listen to the same old music.
So what they dress differently. So what. So fucking what. It’s fucking negligible.
Get a life for yourself and stop judging people. Live a little. Change a little. Why bother?

I look back music wise and see myself listening to Spicegirls, Britney, ToyBox and other «kids music». I would never ever have listened to that today. Why? Because I’ve changed. Or in other words; I developed. Whatever reason it might be, I’m not exactly the same person now that I was 15 years back. That would have been depressing to live in a bubble of high school memories and a realization that nothing had changed in 15 years.

I’m not the same person today, that I was yesterday, or the week before that.
Does that make me a horse on the run? I’ll say no.

Even though my mind and my way of thinking is changing as I keep getting new perspectives on things, I still have all the me  inside of me. All my experiences is what I’ll take with me in life. Like my Kids-music-era; I learned a lot and I’ve decided that it’s something I don’t want to take with me in the future. To be more precisely:  It’s some kind of music I don’t feel a need to listen to anymore. Surely, I can hear a song once a while at a really bad after-party without being nagged down. Surely, I can sing  along in bad tunes. But the truth is I’d rather not, and I would rather not be at that after-party.

Maybe I’m just trying to justify the lost-sensation and give it a meaning, so that I won’t feel totally gone in mind.
I guess I like changes, and I want it just as much as 2pac.
Keep changing. Keep growing. Keep developing.

Social sadness

For so many people, life looks meaningless. We are on roller-coasters mentally.
To quote Pascal: “Nothing is more intolerable for men than a state without purpose, without goals”
For man works fine, as long as it keeps focus, as long as it doesn’t have to think too much, as long as it feels that it matters. A proven reality of being useful to society.

Many people walk around with a makeshift attitude to life. They live only conditionally, only in the present. They stop making plans for the longer term. They stop setting goals.
If it’s one’s sense of purpose to remain useful, to have a job, and that thus is a resource for the community, that could give you a feeling of belonging. But to be in a state of mind where you’re feeling low, blue or depressed, how will you overcome it. When you feel emptiness, a feeling of meaningless, a feeling that nothing matters, and nothing is everything, and everything is nothing. Really, nothing. How do you keep yourself floating above the surface?

This feeling also occurs in a figurative sense, the feeling of existential emptiness, a feeling that life lacks goals and content. People living a life in routines, and suddenly they get time to think. Suddenly everything seems so pointless. I guess a lot of us who have experienced the great pleasure of being drunk, just loves the day after. Hangover. Bad visions. Bad memories. Regret. Emptiness. You are feeling sentiment de vide.  Thoughts that may arise is that yesterday was totally pointless. You sit there with a headache and think that you should never drink again, and you’re allready dreading the job Monday morning. “Why?” You think. “Why am I doing this?” You say to yourself that you are not going to drink, ever again. And you know it’s a lie. Ask yourself;  “how do I change the situation?” “How do I change the outcome?”

Nietzsche said: “He who lives with a ‘why’, can withstand almost any ‘how'” This means that the consciousness that one’s life has a purpose, more than anything else help a person to overcome external and internal harassment’s. For those of you who have seen American Beauty, you will perhaps recognize the main character’s emotional existential meaninglessness. He set himself the typical questions about why and what, and concludes with a how. He quits his job and change his miserable life. He starts giving a fuck. Similar scenario in Fight Club.

Dostoevsky: “Man; a being who gets used to everything” Man is on the run from inner emptiness and desolation, during the flight crashing into a jumble of questions and empty boxes. Questions about life, themselves and the universe. People get lost in their thoughts. The tanks are stuck on a rolling tape in a circle. Man is by nature animated by a will to meaning, a yearning or a meaningful existence and struggle to achieve this goal. When this fails it is to believe that man is trying to numb the feeling of emptiness and intoxicate themselves by whatever satisfaction they can get their hands on, whatever that may mean personally. Sex, love, drugs, food, porn, social media etc. The will for desire occurs in the arena when one is standing there empty handed and disillusioned with nowhere to go. No meaning. No fulfillment. No goals. No visions for one self.

Love is the greatest thing in life, so I live in altruistic spirit to my fellow man. But I still see nothing wrong in people working for themselves, build their character and live in the belief that it will ultimately serve humanity. Yes, we are social beings. Individual unique snowflakes that together form a great white winter. But when summer comes, and we all melt away from each other, what do you want to be next?